This section is one very personal and special to me. They are poems written by me in my own search for a closer walk with our Lord. Over the years I have often written emotions down on paper and miraculously, they even rhyme. My poetry has been a source of much comfort and also served as a journal of sorts. Many of the poems on this site were written during the darkest times of my life and reflect on my search for our Lord and Savior. They have also served to give me an insight into just how far He has brought me over the years. Our Lord is an awesome God. I know I am here today and have survived solely by His grace, mercy and love.

People often ask me how I can believe in a loving, merciful God with all the tragedies I have faced in my life. My reply is how can I not? If I did not have Him in my life, what hope would there be? But as you will see from the poetry here, it was not an easy battle. I struggled as each of you does. I often asked why? There were periods of my life I simply walked away. There were times I was angry, disappointed and chose not to believe. Fortunately His ego can handle it and He refused to give up on me. Actually, He is still working on me. I call myself a work in progress and there is much work left to be done.

It is my fervent prayer that you too may find some comfort in these poems. Perhaps God will use my humble words to touch your heart as well. Please note all poetry has been copyrighted and that means it is illegal to use any of the poems without my express permission. If you would like to use any of the poems you see here, please email me and I will be happy to grant you permission. All poems must show me as the author and if you use them on a web page, you must provide a link back to my site.

Please feel free to share them but you must give credit to me. These poems are covered under copyright, that means the rights and ownership belong to me. Please respect that and thank you!

May God Bless all who enters here.

In The Midst Of Grief

We often ask why when we struggle with grief,  and wonder if God really hears. Though He doesn’t answer in ways we would chose,  you can trust He is sharing your tears.  He knows your confusion, your anger, and pain,  He experienced them all at the cross. When His Son shed His blood, for you and for me,  God knew the true meaning of loss.

He will sustain you with mercy, with grace and with love, till the day we will all meet again. In our real home, in Heaven, free of sickness and death;  free of suffering, anguish and pain.  What a beautiful day, when we meet them all there; oh, the joy, oh, the glory and love. God will dry every tear; He will mend every heart, in our real home, in Heaven above.

 Touch Of An Angel

I felt an angel’s touch today, in the midst of my despair.   Twas sent by God, Himself, to say, “be still and know I’m there.”  To lead through days of darkness, and light your way with love. Be still and know, deep in your heart, I’m reigning from above.

I’ll lift you when you stumble, I’m with you all the time.  I understand and share your pain; remember child of mine, The end is coming quickly; the Lord shall soon appear. To resurrect the righteous ones, I love and hold so dear.

And bring them home, into a place, where broken hearts are healed. And promises I made to you, will finally be fulfilled.  This life is but a spot in time, a place for lessons learned.  Heaven holds the key to all your broken spirit yearns.

I sent an angel down today, to show my words are true. You’re never far, beyond the arms, of all God’s love for you.

Dear Lord

Dear Lord I kneel before You singing praises to Your Name. The pain’s so deep within me and sin’s the one to blame. Rejoicing in Your promise and the peace that lets me stand, to suffer in Your honor till I reach the Promised Land.

Your blessings fall upon me throughout my darkest hour. Your love is radiating to reflect Your awesome power, to heal a heart so broken and ease the pain and grief. Your grace and mercy present to bring such blessed relief.

I know that I can trust You; Your promises are real. My faith in You grows stronger as the wounds begin to heal. Lord lead me where You want me, Your will I must obey. Lord lead me to touch others who may have gone astray.

Your truth will be my armor; my life won’t be the same. In all I say and do Lord let me glorify Your name. I live to fill Your purpose; I pray Your coming nears. To wipe away the suffering and dry away life’s tears.

I long to go to Heaven with loved ones who have died. And join the saints before me standing at your glorious side. This earthly world around me belongs to sin alone. I’m only here to visit – Heaven is my home.

Paintings In The Snow

I hurried through my busy day; my plans somehow had gone astray. With shaking hands and pounding heart, the tensions had begun to mount.  With tapping toes, a frown was set, I snapped at everyone I met. The drive back home loomed dark ahead, my body was tired, my heart was lead.

I turned the curve and time stood still. A wondrous sight rose on the hill. The ground and trees were bathed in white; untouched, unspoiled and warm with light.  Though only seconds could have passed, the joy they brought,  I knew would last.I raised my eyes to skies above; my heavy heart grew light with love.

God painted pictures in the snow, reminding me He loves us so. I stopped the car and bowed in prayer, to thank the Lord for beauty shared.

 Reflection

I met a friend some years ago, so very dear to me. He shared my very feeling, my joys and agony. He had the time to listen whenever I would call. He’s always stood beside me to lift me should I fall.

And then one day I left Him, the greatest loss I’d know. Too dumb to realize it, the world had much to show. I thought my life exciting; I tried all that was new. So bound by Satan’s power; not much I wouldn’t do.

The passing years sped swiftly by, His memory grew dim. My life became a shambles when I walked away from Him. One day I faced the mirror; reflection caused such pain. I longed to call my old friend and know Him once again.

I felt I dare not call on Him; He might not let me in. He wouldn’t even know me; I’d strayed so far in sin. Then I recalled a promise He’d made to all His friends. Forgiveness was His nature, His love would never end.

 His grace was never ending; He was never far away. I only had to reach and He’d help me find my way; up from the very depths of sin unto His glorious side. forgiven in the blood He shed the day my Savior died.

I cried unto my friend in prayer and fell on trembling knees. He took my hand and pulled me up and listened to my pleas. My journey home is rocky but my friend is by my side. He holds me close; I lean on Him; He is my constant guide.

My love for Him grows stronger with every step I go. I cling to Him each moments; He’s the greatest friend I now. I’ll sing His praises every day and draw my strength from Him. That I might help another who, like me, was lost in sin.

With every hour that passes I’ll witness of His love; till every soul can come to know, my friend, my Lord above. Then when my journey’s over and I meet Him face to face. I’ll fall before my awesome Lord who saved me by His grace.

This Rocky Road

Oh Lord this road I travel seems rougher every day. Life’s little bumps and troubles keep getting in my way. I pray you’ll take my burdens and carry them awhile. I stand again to witness but find it hard to smile.

For Satan lies in waiting; strikes time and time again; to knock my feet from under me each time I try to stand. My troubles, in comparison, to others seem quite small; the big ones make me stumble, the small cause me to fall.

Oh let me count my blessings when light begins to dim; and focus on the good in life and testify for Him. May faith that seems to falter; grow stronger every day; that I might help another through God to find their way.

Oh teach me Lord to trust Thee; to pray  Thy will be done, and give me strength to face each day and see the battle won. And as I grow in faith Lord and learn to heed Thy call; please let me always smile that others may not fall.

God’s Sovereign Plan

God has a special purpose; He has a sovereign plan; for every earthly child, for every earthly man. Because in the beginning He created all we see; from the stars on the horizon to the last leaf on the tree.

When you realize His power and the way He leads our life; you will find the strength to travel through a world filled with strife. When you know Him as your Father and His son your Savior dear; you will know that you can trust Him to take away your fear.

You will know Him as your lead; you will know Him as your friend. Without Him you are nothing, but His Holy Spirit He’ll send; to lead through days of darkness; to shield you from the storm; to life you when you stumble and heal your heart so torn.

God has chosen some to live having many tasks to do. Some He chooses to take home; their work on earth is through. Some will never witness; some will cause Him grief. Some will bring Him glory though their lives on earth are brief.

Some will come to know Him and their hearts will fill with peace; comforted in knowing His love will never cease. And death need not be final if we stand God’s earthly test, but just a step beyond the light, into eternal rest.

Jennifer’s In My Heart

Today you’re turning 17; it is your special day. We never dreamed we’d celebrate your birthday quite this way. With flowers at your grave side, words you cannot hear. Broken hearts we’ve tried to mend; eyes that fill with tears.

 An empty space within our soul; a hole within our heart. We miss you more than words can say; our lives are torn apart. I’ve gathered pictures from the past and looked at them awhile. The image clearest in my mind is of your radiant smile.

 The love light shining from your eyes, still fills my heart with glee. The love and goodness of your heart still reaches out to me. Your courage, faith and trust in God, never seemed to cease. I close my eyes and pray to Him, who blessed you with such peace.

 I wish that I could hold you Jen, if only for once more. And tell you that I love you though you’ve passed through Heaven’s doors. I wish that I could thank you, for all you gave to me. I wish that we could talk awhile, of things you now can see.

 There’s so much more we want to say; so much we want to share. We want to know you’re happy now, an angel shining there. Touching lives and reaching out; that always was your way. But we must simply know, my dear, you’re safe with God today.

 We know the Lord must share the pride that overflows within. What a glory to His name, your ministry for Him. Even through your darkest hours, you protected me. Trusting God to see you through, things I refused to see.

 Lifting me each time I fell, shielded by your love. Encouraging and urging me to turn my eyes above. To see the angels waiting there, to gently take your hand. Away from mine to lead you home, unto God’s Promised Land.

 The hope that let us fight so hard and help along the way. Replaced by knowing, darling Jen, we’ll meet again someday. Until then, your memories will have to be enough. To lift us as you always did, whenever things got rough.

 We’ll see your face among the clouds, as sunlight filters through. We’ll see you in each budding flower and every radiant bloom. We’ll see you in each twinkling star that fills the sky with light. We’ll see you in each sparkling snow that falls throughout the night.

 We’ll feel you in each gentle breeze, and feel you in the rain. That leaves wet drops, you used to wipe, across the windowpane. But most of all, we hope you know, we’ll never be apart. Love made a special place for you; you’re buried in our hearts.

Written with love in dedication and memory of my precious daughter, Jennifer Lyn Mullenax November 11, 1994

Grandma’s Poem for Jacob

A year ago, our lives were changed, from dark to light and joy. All by the birth of one small child, our loving little boy.  You brought such joy, and love and light; you made our world complete. Such love profound and beautiful; so tender, and so sweet.

Your smile lit up our lives each day as you played and laughed and ran, and now our hearts are empty and we miss you little man.  We still can feel your kisses, and the softness of your skin, and hear you saying mama as you smiled your toothless grin.

We still can hear your laughter as you raced around the room, and see you softly sleeping as angels tucked you in.  We miss you darling Jacob, and can’t begin to understand, why God would call you home so soon, oh precious little man.

Our arms still long to hold you, our hearts can’t bear the pain.  And yet we know that one day soon, we’ll hold you once again.  Until that day sweet Jacob, the essence of your light,will warm the coldest moment and cover us at night.

Your love will give us strength dear son; your life will give us hope. When grief begins to swallow us, your light will help us cope.  Your life is such a treasure we’ll cherish till we die.  And join you in our heavenly home, just beyond the sky.

And there our darling Jacob, you and daddy and me; will romp and play in Heaven for all eternity.  As you gaze upon the angels and sit at Jesus’ feet, know we’ll still be loving you until the day we meet.

And though we miss you Jacob, we’ll never be apart. You’re in our every memory and buried in our hearts.

With all our love,

Mommy and Daddy

Written for Stephanie and Ladd

 God’s Love

 Many things that come our way are hard to understand. The only simple answer is God has a wondrous plan. He lived before the earth was formed, He’ll live when it is gone; and though it may not make much sense, God’s plan is never wrong.

He formed us from the dust of earth, and filled our lungs with breath; created in His image, and spared eternal death. He loved us from the very day; He sent our souls to earth, rejoicing in the magic of our simple earthly birth.

He loves us as we walk through life and shares our every fear. He loves us in adversity and wipes away our tears. He smiles when the morning sun renews our soul with hope, and graces us with mercy and gives us strength to cope.

We wonder why some are spared, much tragedy and pain, While others bear so much and still praise His Holy name. The crosses that they carry, the heavy price they pay, are reminders of the cross He bore on Calvary that day.

We stand beside a casket, our pain too deep to speak, and softly bow before our Lord, the Comforter we seek. As grief and disappointment consume our very soul, the world seems to tumble as it spins out of control.

The shock engulfs our hearts and minds, too harsh to be absorbed, yet know our only lifeline is held tightly by our Lord. We simply cannot comprehend the trials that we face; so He steps in to hold us up with loving, healing grace.

His promises though yet unseen are there for us to read; He’ll manage every heartache and provide our every need. He’ll lift us when we stumble; He’ll catch us when we fall, and shower us with mercy and see us through it all.

Until the day He calls us and claims us as His own, to share a grand reunion in our precious heavenly home. He’ll wipe each tear we cried away and fill our hearts with glee, and shower us with love and peace for all eternity.

Each loved one that we cherished, each precious life we mourn, is waiting just beyond the sky where Gabriel blows his horn, announcing each arrival as their loved ones gather near and Jesus gently smiles and says, “Come – they’re waiting here”.

He places every baby back in its mother’s arms, and smiles cause He knows at last; we’re safe from every harm. Our parents and our sisters, our friends and brothers too, are gathered there on Heaven’s shores as life begins anew.

A land of no more suffering, or loss, or grief or fear, A home that’s free of sadness, a home that’s free of tears. A seat beside still waters and Heaven’s very best. the Heaven that we long for provides eternal rest.

3-14-06 – 1-23-07